Hello Blogging world! Tonight I'm doing fantastically. I'm watching Winnie the Pooh because this afternoon it was a blustery day, and it then turned into a blustery night. That sort of weather always puts me in the mood to watch Winnie the Pooh. I also got to go shopping today. Now, most of the shopping was for decorating, Christmas, and need to pick up items. I also did some price checking.
I'm very excited because for the second year I get to go to the food show. The food show is once a year at the IX center in Cleveland and is a couple weeks before Thanksgiving (perfect timing right?). A ton of local vendors have booths, they have shows of food creativeness like cake decorating, taste tests, and a beer and wine area. BUT the BEST part is that cooks from the food network come and do cooking shows and sign autographs!!!! I was price checking cookbooks so I can get them signed. Mom and I found out last year, it's better to buy the books beforehand. Now most of the time you spend there is in line for the show or the autograph but to me it's totally worth it. This year, my husband gets to join us, and it all goes according to plan we will then have 5 autographed cookbooks. Hence the price checking.
On my shopping trip I got decor supplies too. I have the supplies to make some yarn covered bottles, yarn wreaths, and reusable snack bags. I'm super psyched because I see all these things on Pintrest and get inspired but don't have the materials. So now I do and that makes me happy.
I did get something for me. I got the shoes I'm going to wear in one of my best friend's weddings this November. They are BCBG nude platform peep toe pumps with a strap. They are the perfect mix of glam and classic! They are also the perfect shoes for a not wedding outfit, which makes them even more desirable. Best of all was the price 30% off a department store!
I then met my mom at a place called Wasabi. It's a Japanese Hibachi restaurant. Mom and I had a good time, we were the only of age people at the table (high school homecoming dance night), so we each ordered a drink. So the chef comes out and he does shots of sake squirted right into your mouth. The first shot I got was pretty large, and the drink was pretty strong, and I also have pretty much stopped drinking because of the not good for making baby thing. Anyways, the chef was almost done and wanted to give another sake shot, so I told him I had to drive home to which he replied "I drive you home!" For the fun of it I said "Take me home!" and got the second sake shot. I got extra food on my plate the rest of the time he cooked because he was going to take me home. My husband thought this was hilarious when I told him all about it hahaha.
My last stop of the night was to Pet Co. Poor puppy dog has been getting fleas. He takes a medication that is a combo of heartworm and flea medication once a month as a pill. Now this medication doesn't keep adult fleas off, but it disrupts their life cycle and doesn't let them reproduce. He was still super itchy and I kept finding adult fleas on him every time we came in from outside (the fleas are crazy bad in our area this year). So I got the topical medication to keep the adult fleas off, and flea shampoo to kill any that were on him now. When I got home I found another on him, so into the bath he went. Now Teddy LOVES baths. He drinks so much water that he looks about 15 lbs overweight after a bath. The shampoo is natural so it smells like spices and it killed the fleas that were on him instantly. So after Teddy peed out and regurgitated his extra water weight out of him, I started taking care of the house. Unfortunately I'm going to have to vacuum everyday for 3 weeks and I'm in the process of washing the rugs, blankets, and bedding using a little of the flea shampoo in the wash. I'm also going back to the store tomorrow to get a spray for the carpet, couch, and Teddy chair. I'm also going to call the vet on Monday and see what they say about the whole situation. Now I've only found a total of 6 fleas, including the dead ones from the bath, but I HATE bugs!! I mean I really hate bugs! I don't want those things inside my house at all and I feel all itchy just thinking about them being on Teddy. I will feel a lot better when everything is washed, sprayed, or vacuumed. I will also feel better when it's cold enough outside that the fleas won't be around.
It's just one more thing to look forward to, living in suburbia there will be less bugs since it will be more inhabited and more people will spray to kill those suckers.
Alright blogging world I'm going to take the pup again...he needs to release more water. Have a great night and I hope your day was as good as mine. Cheers!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Give me a reason
Hey everyone! I started a new routine and so far so good. I made the routine because I'm a person who needs a purpose and I like routines. I don't mind varying my routine, I'm not that guy. Each day I have some daily things, and then a point to the rest of the day. So far I'm 3 for 3 on getting to the gym, and 2 for 3 on getting the point of the day. The part I missed I spent doing other things that did need to be done. Anyways, I wake up and go to the gym, then do some bible study (but I think when that book is done, other self-help-like books could be in order...any suggestions?), and get ready for the day. When I don't have a point to my day, getting dressed and ready is not something that happens every day. I didn't like that some days I did nothing. Well after that I eat lunch and then the reason for my day. I actually do things that need to get done, I don't spend all my time watching TV, and my house is clean!
So, as you can see, this routine I'm doing hits several of my goals. I'm also finding that I like not working, but not the lack of money. Low and behold, tomorrow is my really focus on job hunting day! Parts of me wonder if I would do better working for myself at home, but I don't know how to do that. I have a couple ideas but it seems that if I talk about an idea, it doesn't happen. So I will be very vague until it is in full swing.
This post was actually supposed to be about whatever crafty thing I did on my crafting day, but I got a little tied up getting the house ready for fall and winter. I want to start craft blogging, so some posts are going to be about crafts I have done. The one I'm working on now isn't just a craft, it's my craft area. Right now it is just a part of the basement with crafty type material stuff, but as I work on it, it will become storage and an area that crafts can be done. I'm repurposing an old hanging shoe rack with cans and cardboard boxes to make a hanging desk storage unit. I have plastic drawers that will hold other materials. I have a broken desk that will hold lighter projects and be a drying and holding area. I also have wall space that I can hang the girly pictures that I can't hang anywhere else in the house, and my project list, AND my memo boards. It is all very exciting...plus it's getting organized which is such a great feeling. I will post before and after pictures once it is done. Those pictures will also contain the before and after pictures of the whole basement since the craft area is part of the basement area. Oh and since most of my projects right now are Christmas presents, those craft posts have to wait until after Christmas.
Alright kids, I'm exhausted 3 for 3 days at the gym tend to wear a girl out. I'm going to do a little reading and go to bed. I'm glad I had good news to report, and I hope you enjoyed. Cheers!
So, as you can see, this routine I'm doing hits several of my goals. I'm also finding that I like not working, but not the lack of money. Low and behold, tomorrow is my really focus on job hunting day! Parts of me wonder if I would do better working for myself at home, but I don't know how to do that. I have a couple ideas but it seems that if I talk about an idea, it doesn't happen. So I will be very vague until it is in full swing.
This post was actually supposed to be about whatever crafty thing I did on my crafting day, but I got a little tied up getting the house ready for fall and winter. I want to start craft blogging, so some posts are going to be about crafts I have done. The one I'm working on now isn't just a craft, it's my craft area. Right now it is just a part of the basement with crafty type material stuff, but as I work on it, it will become storage and an area that crafts can be done. I'm repurposing an old hanging shoe rack with cans and cardboard boxes to make a hanging desk storage unit. I have plastic drawers that will hold other materials. I have a broken desk that will hold lighter projects and be a drying and holding area. I also have wall space that I can hang the girly pictures that I can't hang anywhere else in the house, and my project list, AND my memo boards. It is all very exciting...plus it's getting organized which is such a great feeling. I will post before and after pictures once it is done. Those pictures will also contain the before and after pictures of the whole basement since the craft area is part of the basement area. Oh and since most of my projects right now are Christmas presents, those craft posts have to wait until after Christmas.
Alright kids, I'm exhausted 3 for 3 days at the gym tend to wear a girl out. I'm going to do a little reading and go to bed. I'm glad I had good news to report, and I hope you enjoyed. Cheers!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Rant and Retreat
I am incredibly annoyed right now. I figured out a way to build some shelves for cheaper than buying shelving and that can hold quite a bit of weight. Well my husband decided that he wanted some too. Guess who's job it was to go get all the supplies? Guess who did all the measuring, and had to go to 2 stores to get it all? That's right, me. So see as it is his shelf and I had already done all the work, I asked him to do the heavy lifting and take the materials from my car to the basement where the I would put the shelf together. Wouldn't you know it that I got yelled at for being "too lazy" to help him move the things to the basement. When the shelf was for mainly my things, arts and crafts/storage stuff, I did all the work myself and let me tell you PVC pipe is not that heavy. OK so right now I don't have a job, and I am at home, so I don't bitch that I have to cook and do the dishes EVERY night, even though it does get old being treated like a maid. It would be nice though if my husband could at least take his trash to the where? Oh how about a trash can that is about 20 ft from where he sits, only 10 ft round trip out of the way when he goes upstairs to bed. Instead trash just sits at his desk, on the coffee table, on the kitchen counter, on the floor, on the couch, or anywhere else he decides to put it down. Or what about his clothes, last I checked the bathroom floor was not a dirty clothes basket. And don't forget the bedroom floor because his clean clothes have been there for 4 months and I ask him at least twice a week to put away his clothes. The reason I don't put away his clothes (because I used to), he told me I put them away in the wrong spots and said he wanted to do it himself. That didn't even last a week. When I ask him to do something, he tells me he is busy. It's funny that busy is playing a computer game and watching TV whenever I walk into the office. He then has the audacity to tell me that I am lazy and the house is never clean because of me. The ring on my finger does not make me your maid or your slave. The options I see are to take everything of his that is left out, and lock it up or give him a sticker chart like you would a 5 year old. I don't know what he would have to do to get it back. I do know that he needs to be taught a lesson that most people learn as children. He grew up in a house that didn't make the kids put away their things when they were done with them. **Dear Parents, Future husbands and wives depend on this lesson later in life, so please do your kid a favor and MAKE THEM PUT AWAY THEIR OWN THINGS AND CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES!!** Please don't get me wrong, it's not that the house is spotless besides his things, I have plenty out. I get so frustrated with the whole situation that I don't see the point in cleaning anything if he can't pick up after himself. Oh and I have tried to make a cleaning schedule, and get him to just put things away for 15 min a night...nope he's "busy". Does anyone else have this problem? What did you do to help him learn?
*sigh*deep breaths...I'm not done being angry, but I'm just ranting about the same things over and over again in my head.
On to other news, I participated in the Women in Faith retreat that our church puts on each year this past weekend. It was good, but I saw some things that could have been improved on. I think I would have enjoyed it more if I wasn't the only person under 40 there. I am just at a different part of my life then they are and that changes how I feel about my faith. I also think the theme felt like a bit of a stretch and was not interesting at all. It did remind me that I do need to be more christian-like in my actions, and that I need to remember to thank God for the good in my life. I tend to forget the thanking part because I have a hard time seeing the good in my life.
I wish I had more to say, and maybe I will next time, but getting only 5 hours of sleep a night for 3 nights when you are used to getting 10, is making this girl fall asleep. I will get back to you all about the retreat. Cheers!
*sigh*deep breaths...I'm not done being angry, but I'm just ranting about the same things over and over again in my head.
On to other news, I participated in the Women in Faith retreat that our church puts on each year this past weekend. It was good, but I saw some things that could have been improved on. I think I would have enjoyed it more if I wasn't the only person under 40 there. I am just at a different part of my life then they are and that changes how I feel about my faith. I also think the theme felt like a bit of a stretch and was not interesting at all. It did remind me that I do need to be more christian-like in my actions, and that I need to remember to thank God for the good in my life. I tend to forget the thanking part because I have a hard time seeing the good in my life.
I wish I had more to say, and maybe I will next time, but getting only 5 hours of sleep a night for 3 nights when you are used to getting 10, is making this girl fall asleep. I will get back to you all about the retreat. Cheers!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
The Hidden Epicenter
I have this dream. In this dream my whole house is organized, to the point that if I moved it would be easy peasy (lemon squeezy) because my basement would be all on shelves. Now this is a major dream, mostly because I have to get the motivation to get it there, and to keep it there. It doesn't help that my husband is notorious for leaving things all over the house (he never got the if you use it, put it away lesson growing up) and I give into lazy and think "well if he does it, then I can do it today..." I have an appointment with my mom to start going through my basement to organize it and get rid of things. I made her a deal, she helps me with the basement, then I help her with the room above the garage, then she helps me with another room etc. etc. I choose the basement because I feel that there is a lot in my upstairs that could actually be put down in the basement because we don't use it that often. It's like the hidden epicenter; even though we don't spend a lot of time down there, it could set the tone for the whole house. I'm also one of those people that once it is clean, it's more likely to stay clean.
I'm also hoping this getting organized plan will jump start the motivation that has recently been sputtering in me. I've been crazy tired and have really just sat around all day. It's making me hate myself. I want to be internally motivated so I can have a clean house, and get to the gym more often. This tells me that I do need a job. Preferably a job that I can leave at my job at the end of the day unless I want to take it home with me.
I'll post some before and after pictures of the basement organizing project. I'll also take some pictures of the hubban's hydroponic gardening DIY. Maybe I'll even let him be a guest blogger to explain what it is and how he did it. I hope I'm not sounding all depressing, if so I'm blaming the change in the weather. Anyways, for all you fall lovers, happy fall! Cheers!
I'm also hoping this getting organized plan will jump start the motivation that has recently been sputtering in me. I've been crazy tired and have really just sat around all day. It's making me hate myself. I want to be internally motivated so I can have a clean house, and get to the gym more often. This tells me that I do need a job. Preferably a job that I can leave at my job at the end of the day unless I want to take it home with me.
I'll post some before and after pictures of the basement organizing project. I'll also take some pictures of the hubban's hydroponic gardening DIY. Maybe I'll even let him be a guest blogger to explain what it is and how he did it. I hope I'm not sounding all depressing, if so I'm blaming the change in the weather. Anyways, for all you fall lovers, happy fall! Cheers!
Monday, September 5, 2011
Good Things, Positive Thoughts
Hey everyone! Happy Labor Day! I read an interesting tidbit a couple days ago. Pretty people make more money than people considered average. (17% more for men and 12% more for women) Now it didn't matter if you were tall or short or if you were thin or thick because a pretty/handsome face is still a pretty/handsome face. That and seeing all these cute outfits on Pinterest started me thinking, I really need to not give in to my want to be comfy first, cute later. I know that I feel more confident when I know I look good, turns out it could also help determine my pay. The thing is I don't want to spend a ton of money to be fashionable. I'm going to start looking for those classic pieces that you see coming back every season and discount knockoff pieces. I also asked my mom for fashion and makeup lessons (no idea where I would get those but worth looking for). I want to learn makeup basics, how to vary my routine, how to change from day to night looks, what to look for in new products, when to change out styles and products, and a great skin care program. In my fashion lessons I want to go through my current wardrobe and create outfits, learn stores to go to to shop for discounted fashion, how to shop properly, how to change out my wardrobe according to seasons, create my own style, and how to update to keep up with fashion trends. There is also an e-book I found that has 31 hair styles and tips that look super cute and could dress up any outfit. As I'm re-reading this, I sound super vain, but I see it as a way to become more confident and happier with myself. I'm still going to the gym and keeping up with that so I know I'm getting more fit, losing fat and gaining muscle. I haven't lost any pounds though, so some days (you know those days when you feel crazy fat even though are aren't?) it gets a little discouraging.
Later on this month I'll be attending a Woman in Faith conference for two days. I'm a little nervous because the women that I know that attend these are older and therefore we have ways of going about things. So it will be me trying to accept and work with other ideas and people with different values (not quite the correct word but that is all I'm coming up with). I think it will be good for me and you can best bet believe that I'll blog about it.
On the job front, I put in my resume for a job that I think would be the best for me. I haven't heard anything about it yet, so this week I'm going to work on adjusting my resume to send off to other jobs. I really like the idea of working in a dentist or doctors office at the front desk or somewhere with a similar position. Wish me luck!
One other note, things with my husband have been pretty good. Not that things have been bad, that is not what I'm saying at all. I'm just saying things have been great! He and I have made some decisions that make sense for us and will bring an exciting future. I can't wait to share good news about the things that are coming!
This Christmas I'm planning on making as many gifts as possible as long as they are actually cheaper than buying gifts. I'm excited about people getting and enjoying their gifts and saving money. I have been using Pinterest to get ideas mainly. I need to start looking in other places but I love Pinterest. It will be awesome if everything works out the way I'm hoping. I'm going to start planning Christmas towards the end of October (for as little stress as possible) but I'm gift planning now to make sure I have enough time to make what I need to make.
See how good I would be at being a stay at home mom? Let's hope that one day that can happen. I'm wishing happiness to you all, Cheers!
Later on this month I'll be attending a Woman in Faith conference for two days. I'm a little nervous because the women that I know that attend these are older and therefore we have ways of going about things. So it will be me trying to accept and work with other ideas and people with different values (not quite the correct word but that is all I'm coming up with). I think it will be good for me and you can best bet believe that I'll blog about it.
On the job front, I put in my resume for a job that I think would be the best for me. I haven't heard anything about it yet, so this week I'm going to work on adjusting my resume to send off to other jobs. I really like the idea of working in a dentist or doctors office at the front desk or somewhere with a similar position. Wish me luck!
One other note, things with my husband have been pretty good. Not that things have been bad, that is not what I'm saying at all. I'm just saying things have been great! He and I have made some decisions that make sense for us and will bring an exciting future. I can't wait to share good news about the things that are coming!
This Christmas I'm planning on making as many gifts as possible as long as they are actually cheaper than buying gifts. I'm excited about people getting and enjoying their gifts and saving money. I have been using Pinterest to get ideas mainly. I need to start looking in other places but I love Pinterest. It will be awesome if everything works out the way I'm hoping. I'm going to start planning Christmas towards the end of October (for as little stress as possible) but I'm gift planning now to make sure I have enough time to make what I need to make.
See how good I would be at being a stay at home mom? Let's hope that one day that can happen. I'm wishing happiness to you all, Cheers!
Monday, August 15, 2011
creepy bloggers
Ya know those bloggers who have all the followers that design companies contact them about and ask to design their blog. These are also the same people who have tutorials, or PDFs, or other things that are attractive. Many times the blogs I find in my stumbles on the internet are blogs where the writer is a woman who has a happy marriage, several children, she works from home or is a stay at home mom. You know the ones I'm talking about right? Well how do they get like that? Not going to lie, I'm jealous. They are creative, usually very organized and almost creepy. I mean it, creepy. They can somehow clean everyday, take care of their kids and family, over plan everything, and have time to craft, redecorate their homes once a year, and have their at home businesses.
I'm feeling a bit better about how I look, currently I feel a little fat but I know I'm thinner than I was when I started. I have decided on a theme song for my quest of faith "Well I heard Jesus he drank wine, I bet we'd get along just fine. He could calm the storm and heal the blind, I bet he's understand a heart like mine". This song reminds me Jesus was a real guy and he doesn't expect me to be perfect. Right now my stress levels are down, but I also don't have a job or anything to do really. My stress levels always go up in the winter. I will continue to monitor the stress of things. My outlook on life is still pretty crappy. I think people suck, the country is failing, and very little good comes out of our government. Don't get me wrong, I think right now Obama is the scapegoat and I think he has some great ideas, but congress is acting like a spoiled 2 year old. It's frustrating, because we learn how to compromise in Kindergarten and along the way we forget how to compromise, share, be friends with everyone in class, and get excited about the simple things.
Last but not least what do I want to do with my career. I really don't want to be a teacher anymore. The thought of going into a classroom and having to deal with administration and laws that prevent teaching being done is so repulsive to me that I hate it. I would love to get a job at the front desk of a dentist or doctor's office. I could plan schedules, deal with people, make phone calls, put in payments and insurance information in the computer. So right now I'm looking for those types of jobs. I also really want to be a stay at home mom. I know that I can't do that just yet but it's ok, I don't mind waiting too much. Hey maybe one day I will be one of those creepy super organized blogger work from home super moms that I read about.
Cheers!
I'm feeling a bit better about how I look, currently I feel a little fat but I know I'm thinner than I was when I started. I have decided on a theme song for my quest of faith "Well I heard Jesus he drank wine, I bet we'd get along just fine. He could calm the storm and heal the blind, I bet he's understand a heart like mine". This song reminds me Jesus was a real guy and he doesn't expect me to be perfect. Right now my stress levels are down, but I also don't have a job or anything to do really. My stress levels always go up in the winter. I will continue to monitor the stress of things. My outlook on life is still pretty crappy. I think people suck, the country is failing, and very little good comes out of our government. Don't get me wrong, I think right now Obama is the scapegoat and I think he has some great ideas, but congress is acting like a spoiled 2 year old. It's frustrating, because we learn how to compromise in Kindergarten and along the way we forget how to compromise, share, be friends with everyone in class, and get excited about the simple things.
Last but not least what do I want to do with my career. I really don't want to be a teacher anymore. The thought of going into a classroom and having to deal with administration and laws that prevent teaching being done is so repulsive to me that I hate it. I would love to get a job at the front desk of a dentist or doctor's office. I could plan schedules, deal with people, make phone calls, put in payments and insurance information in the computer. So right now I'm looking for those types of jobs. I also really want to be a stay at home mom. I know that I can't do that just yet but it's ok, I don't mind waiting too much. Hey maybe one day I will be one of those creepy super organized blogger work from home super moms that I read about.
Cheers!
Monday, July 25, 2011
Oops! Busy Times...
So I realize that it has been forever since I have posted anything at all. I have always had a hard time keeping a journal and I tend to forget that I didn't post then all of a sudden it's been a month and I'm still silent. So the silence stops here. I'm not going to post the good things because I can't remember that far back. I do have some sad news to report. My poppa passed away, and as my mom puts it, I actually had a relationship with him so this death is harder than others I have experienced. My poppa was very good at letting others shine but he loved golf, gardening, family, and being active. It was only in the past year that his heath started going down because of Parkinson's and he was just a shell of his former self. In the end, he went into respiratory arrest and became comatose looking more like a Halloween decoration than my poppa. I know that he is in a better place with my Grandma, and he is breathing without oxygen, and getting ready to go golfing...but knowing that doesn't mean I don't miss him. Leaving his house (which I'm at right now) for what will be the last time will be so hard because we have to sell the house. This is the only house that I have ever known for my mother's parents. We had a memorial service in NC last Tuesday July the 19th and the burial will be Saturday the 30th in Ohio. I did copy some great old pictures of him and I will post them on my facebook because they are just so great!
Phil has also been out of town for a month and I had to get special permission to tell him everything that was going on because he was not allowed to talk to me. (Stupid army and their thinking) He gets to come home soon so I get a big part of my support system back which will be nice because I will be able to support my mom when she has to bury her dad.
While we are in NC I have been able to keep working out, I may have put some weight on but I still went to the gym even though I was out of town. So YAY me! I also did some workouts at home.
Mom and I went to Wilmington to visit her college friend. We went to decompress and have some light time before having to come back to start going through the house. I got to play in the Atlantic Ocean, walk on the beach, get really sunburned, go on a ghost walk (which I love), and ask some questions about a possible career path. I have come to the conclusion that I would do very well living in beach town because the less stressed atmoshere. The possible career path would be a medical transcriptionist. I would be able to work from home, make almost as much as I did teaching (depending on how much I work and type), and I could take it with me when I moved. The only thing I'm nervous about is how accurate I have to be to pass the classes...high expectations often make me nervous because of my low self esteem, never thinking I'm good enough and all that. I'm still not sure what I want to do...nothing seems to fit.
My faith and I have been doing alright lately. I kinda recognize that my beliefs will probably never totally be in line with the church. For instance, the Bible...not always the best example of God or Jesus. Old Testament, God was angry and punished people for not following him, my way or the highway attitude, then in the New Testament God loves everyone and forgives everyone as long as they ask for it. Then the books in the Bible have been changed over the years, parts left out, new parts put in; on top of that, just about every monarch/pope has changed what the Bible has said to suit their needs which is why there is the King James Version, the Marry Poppins Version, the Grasshopper Version and all those other versions out there. And as Christians we had to hold a conference to vote on whether Jesus was actually the son of God or just some nutter. Finally when the books of the Bible were first written, there was a lot of opium being smoked in that area, and opium can cause hallucinations...I mean think about it, if your buddy got high and wrote a book because God told him what to say, would you think that is the most reliable writing? I do believe in God, and Jesus and Heaven. I think the stories in the Bible should be used like fables and folk tales, the morals should be looked at and then applied to life accordingly. Jesus welcomed the children, in your life, care for the young because they are the future and looking to you to show them the right thing to do; Jesus gave water to the whatever was the "enemy" of some other chick, love other people even if you don't agree with their lifestyle. I also believe in ghosts, because what more proof of life after death is that? I mean earth bound spirits don't have it the best, and they haven't gone to where they need to go but sometimes our loved ones come back just to check on us. There are times when I know I'm being watched over because I feel so loved and like nothing can hurt me. My best friend's mother passed away a few years ago, around her deathday, my twin always feels her mother's presence around her. I have seen twin after she felt her mom, and my twin has that quiet happiness and can only come from feeling the love someone has for us.
Ok I'm going to stop preaching now. I think I'm done for the night. Thanks to everyone for the well wishes for my family! Cheers!
Phil has also been out of town for a month and I had to get special permission to tell him everything that was going on because he was not allowed to talk to me. (Stupid army and their thinking) He gets to come home soon so I get a big part of my support system back which will be nice because I will be able to support my mom when she has to bury her dad.
While we are in NC I have been able to keep working out, I may have put some weight on but I still went to the gym even though I was out of town. So YAY me! I also did some workouts at home.
Mom and I went to Wilmington to visit her college friend. We went to decompress and have some light time before having to come back to start going through the house. I got to play in the Atlantic Ocean, walk on the beach, get really sunburned, go on a ghost walk (which I love), and ask some questions about a possible career path. I have come to the conclusion that I would do very well living in beach town because the less stressed atmoshere. The possible career path would be a medical transcriptionist. I would be able to work from home, make almost as much as I did teaching (depending on how much I work and type), and I could take it with me when I moved. The only thing I'm nervous about is how accurate I have to be to pass the classes...high expectations often make me nervous because of my low self esteem, never thinking I'm good enough and all that. I'm still not sure what I want to do...nothing seems to fit.
My faith and I have been doing alright lately. I kinda recognize that my beliefs will probably never totally be in line with the church. For instance, the Bible...not always the best example of God or Jesus. Old Testament, God was angry and punished people for not following him, my way or the highway attitude, then in the New Testament God loves everyone and forgives everyone as long as they ask for it. Then the books in the Bible have been changed over the years, parts left out, new parts put in; on top of that, just about every monarch/pope has changed what the Bible has said to suit their needs which is why there is the King James Version, the Marry Poppins Version, the Grasshopper Version and all those other versions out there. And as Christians we had to hold a conference to vote on whether Jesus was actually the son of God or just some nutter. Finally when the books of the Bible were first written, there was a lot of opium being smoked in that area, and opium can cause hallucinations...I mean think about it, if your buddy got high and wrote a book because God told him what to say, would you think that is the most reliable writing? I do believe in God, and Jesus and Heaven. I think the stories in the Bible should be used like fables and folk tales, the morals should be looked at and then applied to life accordingly. Jesus welcomed the children, in your life, care for the young because they are the future and looking to you to show them the right thing to do; Jesus gave water to the whatever was the "enemy" of some other chick, love other people even if you don't agree with their lifestyle. I also believe in ghosts, because what more proof of life after death is that? I mean earth bound spirits don't have it the best, and they haven't gone to where they need to go but sometimes our loved ones come back just to check on us. There are times when I know I'm being watched over because I feel so loved and like nothing can hurt me. My best friend's mother passed away a few years ago, around her deathday, my twin always feels her mother's presence around her. I have seen twin after she felt her mom, and my twin has that quiet happiness and can only come from feeling the love someone has for us.
Ok I'm going to stop preaching now. I think I'm done for the night. Thanks to everyone for the well wishes for my family! Cheers!
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