Hey everyone. Today's post is not about me at all. First some background. Growing up I went to a public school and went to a church that provided a private school. Myself and a few others that did not attend both church and school were pretty much outcasts. As we all got older, it got easier to be part of the group but there was always that line. (This is part of what has given me such issues with organized religion) Anyways, some of the people I met through that youth group were good friends and some were good people and some were more closed off. My mother and I left that church for multiple reasons and I lost touch with many of those people. After many years and thanks to Facebook I can now follow them and see what is going on in their lives.
There was this one guy that I never knew really well, but he was always nice and I was never treated differently by him. He is the kind of person that is nice to everyone, positive, and just that great guy. Like I said I never knew him well, and after finding him on Facebook, we didn't talk. Well he got married and was living his life and was about to be a dad. On July 31st, 2012 his wife and unborn baby died from a blood clot that went into her lungs. When he first posted the information on Facebook, I thought it was some horrible joke. Unfortunately it was true and his life is forever changed. I never met her, but I have only heard great things about her. I just know that someone who treated me so well when I was an outsider had a big effect on me and he did not deserve to have this happen to him.
So my question is this. Why do such horrible things happen to good people? Maybe once I die and I'm in heaven I'll find out the answer to this and the other millions of questions I have. I do know that I don't know how he is getting through this time because just the thought of losing the hubban eventually puts me into a spin that blows my mind. I also know that it made me go home and tell my husband I love him besides the quick "love you". So, if you can send up a prayer or thought to help this guy and his family get through this horrible time and make sure you tell your loved ones that you love them.
Friday, August 3, 2012
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
R&R?
Today I have given in. Well actually the past 4 days I have given in. As you know we have been crazy busy. Well we have three more weeks of busyness. I'm so tired and its summer sickness time so on Saturday I got a little sick and ever since then I've been wanting to take it easy. So my motivation has been kaput!
I have been able to start the art that we are going to hang in the kitchen, and I got the shadow box that we are going to use to start saving for our next trip to Disney! I'm glad some good things are happening, and I'm not going to beat myself up over the fact that my body and brain are trying to tell me that I need to make sure I'm taking care of myself. This weekend is that run, and a day with my mom. So that will be some good me time.
Anyways, I felt like I should share that. Being busy is good, always being busy is tiring, and taking care of yourself is a must. Feel good about all of those things. Cheers!
I have been able to start the art that we are going to hang in the kitchen, and I got the shadow box that we are going to use to start saving for our next trip to Disney! I'm glad some good things are happening, and I'm not going to beat myself up over the fact that my body and brain are trying to tell me that I need to make sure I'm taking care of myself. This weekend is that run, and a day with my mom. So that will be some good me time.
Anyways, I felt like I should share that. Being busy is good, always being busy is tiring, and taking care of yourself is a must. Feel good about all of those things. Cheers!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Wooo Hooo!!!
Wow has a lot gotten done since I wrote last! I finished deep cleaning and organizing the basement and master bedroom. I made a craft organizer out of an old shoe rack, old cans, paint, and zip ties (my first attempt at a tutorial is coming up), and I made a post-it planner for my projects based on a blog that I found on Pinterest. OMG you guys! It makes me feel super awesome and a lot less crazy now that EVERYTHING is clean!! It's been a couple weeks since the major deep clean of the most used rooms and things are still pretty clean. Of course there is the exception of some of my husbands things that I guess I haven't nagged enough about yet haha. I can always find important papers, getting work done goes faster because my area is neat and I feel calmer. In the basement my crafts are organized so I can actually get some projects done, the husband's army clothes and toys are all in one area and matched according to wear and tear, and things are off the floor. Now our basement looks huge! The only problem is that the husband now wants to set up his drum-set. The set that had to come to Germany with us and sat in not 1 but 2 basements for the 3 years we were there, and has been sitting, never unpacked, in this basement for 2 years. I think as soon as I get a space I want to spend time in, the husband finds a way to take it over. This is why in the future house, I get my interest rooms in the house and he can have a shed in the back. No joke, I want my space so I'm kicking him into the shed.
Oh I have also started gathering all of the frames and making time to get some decorating done. This weekend we are going to take pictures of each other with the husband's nice camera and then play around with my dad's Photoshop. Those pictures will then become giant photo booth style prints that will be hung in our hallway. I'm also looking for great food/dining quotes to make a set of 3 kitchen paintings. One will be the words in the shape of a bottle of wine, another of a fork I think, and the third is up in the air so far. I also have to get the butcher paper from work to plan out the gallery wall in the living room. BTW I'm thinking that I'm going to start stealing the husband's camera so that I can start putting pictures to go along with the words on this here blog. That will make me so much more interesting to read!
Jumping topics like I'm jumping from a train. The hubs and I went to marriage retreat last weekend. The class is a good class, but the army shortened it, provided a presenter that was not totally comfortable with the information, and left out some pretty important parts (like where you are supposed to talk to your spouse about how you think and feel) while replacing those parts with unnecessary other bits (like asking the entire room every question and talking a lot about trust/commitment and physical safety in your relationship). We met some pretty cool people and had a great time and I would recommend the class to anyone wanting to strengthen their marriage and improve communication or learn more techniques to do so. Oh and it might be helpful to tell you what class we took too huh? We took P.R.E.P. and you can find out more about it https://www.prepinc.com/Content/ABOUT-US/What-Is-PREP.htm <----right there. (Note to self: learn how to add in links that are not all website-y and just a word or two)
Oh and just another thing...can anyone explain why when I get all motivated I want to do a million things when I should really only focus on one? I'm trying so hard not to lose my motivation and to get everything started and finished. Haha by the time I get everything on my list finished, I'll probably have just as many new things on the list!
Coming up we still have a wedding shower, a race, a military weekend, a visit from friends, and a wedding in the next three weeks. Wish us luck that our house stays clean, that you still hear from me, and that some additional items get knocked off of the to-do list. Cheers!
Oh I have also started gathering all of the frames and making time to get some decorating done. This weekend we are going to take pictures of each other with the husband's nice camera and then play around with my dad's Photoshop. Those pictures will then become giant photo booth style prints that will be hung in our hallway. I'm also looking for great food/dining quotes to make a set of 3 kitchen paintings. One will be the words in the shape of a bottle of wine, another of a fork I think, and the third is up in the air so far. I also have to get the butcher paper from work to plan out the gallery wall in the living room. BTW I'm thinking that I'm going to start stealing the husband's camera so that I can start putting pictures to go along with the words on this here blog. That will make me so much more interesting to read!
Jumping topics like I'm jumping from a train. The hubs and I went to marriage retreat last weekend. The class is a good class, but the army shortened it, provided a presenter that was not totally comfortable with the information, and left out some pretty important parts (like where you are supposed to talk to your spouse about how you think and feel) while replacing those parts with unnecessary other bits (like asking the entire room every question and talking a lot about trust/commitment and physical safety in your relationship). We met some pretty cool people and had a great time and I would recommend the class to anyone wanting to strengthen their marriage and improve communication or learn more techniques to do so. Oh and it might be helpful to tell you what class we took too huh? We took P.R.E.P. and you can find out more about it https://www.prepinc.com/Content/ABOUT-US/What-Is-PREP.htm <----right there. (Note to self: learn how to add in links that are not all website-y and just a word or two)
Oh and just another thing...can anyone explain why when I get all motivated I want to do a million things when I should really only focus on one? I'm trying so hard not to lose my motivation and to get everything started and finished. Haha by the time I get everything on my list finished, I'll probably have just as many new things on the list!
Coming up we still have a wedding shower, a race, a military weekend, a visit from friends, and a wedding in the next three weeks. Wish us luck that our house stays clean, that you still hear from me, and that some additional items get knocked off of the to-do list. Cheers!
Friday, July 6, 2012
Here we go again
Hello everyone!
So tomorrow starts another cleaning weekend! Insert groan but knowledge that the satisfying feeling will be coming. Mom is coming again to help, which is awesome because I just can't get my ass motivated on my own. First we are tackling the master bedroom by washing walls, dusting, cleaning out the humidifier, and air purifier, and numbering my husbands socks. I know that last one seems crazy, but if you know the confusing mess of mens socks and their lack of matching and hole-y-ness, then you will understand why I am sorting, matching, tossing the crap, and numbering my husband's socks for my sanity. After that, we are going after the basement. The good news is that mom and I have already sorted most of the stuff from a previous organizing adventure. Now it is just putting it all away and making sure it is all still organized. It is also an excuse to start the planning of the decorating of my house. Cue cheers! Don't think that I'm not getting the husband involved. I'm making him take down the Christmas lights (don't judge), and get rid of the three nasty wasp nests that have appeared on our house. That is about all he gets to do because he is really not good at cleaning. He is a black and white type of person. Either it all stays or it all goes...needless to say this gets really annoying.
I'm sure there is more that I want to write but it really is just bitching and I don't feel like boring you all with how boys are dumb. I also am losing my train of thought so this is it. Good night! Cheers!
So tomorrow starts another cleaning weekend! Insert groan but knowledge that the satisfying feeling will be coming. Mom is coming again to help, which is awesome because I just can't get my ass motivated on my own. First we are tackling the master bedroom by washing walls, dusting, cleaning out the humidifier, and air purifier, and numbering my husbands socks. I know that last one seems crazy, but if you know the confusing mess of mens socks and their lack of matching and hole-y-ness, then you will understand why I am sorting, matching, tossing the crap, and numbering my husband's socks for my sanity. After that, we are going after the basement. The good news is that mom and I have already sorted most of the stuff from a previous organizing adventure. Now it is just putting it all away and making sure it is all still organized. It is also an excuse to start the planning of the decorating of my house. Cue cheers! Don't think that I'm not getting the husband involved. I'm making him take down the Christmas lights (don't judge), and get rid of the three nasty wasp nests that have appeared on our house. That is about all he gets to do because he is really not good at cleaning. He is a black and white type of person. Either it all stays or it all goes...needless to say this gets really annoying.
I'm sure there is more that I want to write but it really is just bitching and I don't feel like boring you all with how boys are dumb. I also am losing my train of thought so this is it. Good night! Cheers!
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Relief!
Hey everyone!
So I spent last weekend deep cleaning my house with my mom. Ahhhhh talk about relief! We cleaned out the office, guest room, bathroom, hallway, living room, and the kitchen. I mean we CLEANED, like washed walls, moved furniture, removed all from shelves and scrubbed. It was a lot of work but we almost got everything done we planned to do. The only reason we didn't get it all done was because the two hardest rooms planned for that weekend took longer than we thought it would. Since we have cleaned, I have been able on a motivated mission. Seriously, I have gotten so much done in the last week that it is crazy! Of, course by Friday I was completely exhausted to the point that I was falling asleep on the couch by 10. I'm still super proud of what we accomplished and how it made me feel afterwards.
Coming up, the hubban and I have the next 6 weekends packed. Cedar Point, 4th of July, another cleaning weekend (to get the basement and master bedroom and to decorate of course), his drill, a race, a wedding, and a much needed visit from great friends. Summer is the busiest time for us it seems! I just hope that playing and working so hard without much time to chill won't make my pretty house go boom again.
Since we are so busy, and I'm so motivated (warm weather does that to be ya know), I have been thinking about things that I could do to make my life easier. Once a month cooking was something that I was looking into, but I'm confused on how it works. I mean obviously you only prep once a month and then freeze everything, but the website I found had about 3 breakfasts, 4 lunches, and 6-8 dinners for the month. They then said that you would be eating each dinner twice a month. The math does not add up, so I may be doing more research on that.
Switching topics, I have found the show Pretty Little Liars on Netflix. Good Lord is it addicting! Perfect for escaping into a guilty pleasure. I'm also re-watching Charmed and experiencing True Blood on DVD. Netflix does wonders for the summer TV season. Alright everyone I need to get my butt to bed because tomorrow brings Cedar Point and an 18 hour day. Have wonderful nights and Happy Fourths! Cheers!
So I spent last weekend deep cleaning my house with my mom. Ahhhhh talk about relief! We cleaned out the office, guest room, bathroom, hallway, living room, and the kitchen. I mean we CLEANED, like washed walls, moved furniture, removed all from shelves and scrubbed. It was a lot of work but we almost got everything done we planned to do. The only reason we didn't get it all done was because the two hardest rooms planned for that weekend took longer than we thought it would. Since we have cleaned, I have been able on a motivated mission. Seriously, I have gotten so much done in the last week that it is crazy! Of, course by Friday I was completely exhausted to the point that I was falling asleep on the couch by 10. I'm still super proud of what we accomplished and how it made me feel afterwards.
Coming up, the hubban and I have the next 6 weekends packed. Cedar Point, 4th of July, another cleaning weekend (to get the basement and master bedroom and to decorate of course), his drill, a race, a wedding, and a much needed visit from great friends. Summer is the busiest time for us it seems! I just hope that playing and working so hard without much time to chill won't make my pretty house go boom again.
Since we are so busy, and I'm so motivated (warm weather does that to be ya know), I have been thinking about things that I could do to make my life easier. Once a month cooking was something that I was looking into, but I'm confused on how it works. I mean obviously you only prep once a month and then freeze everything, but the website I found had about 3 breakfasts, 4 lunches, and 6-8 dinners for the month. They then said that you would be eating each dinner twice a month. The math does not add up, so I may be doing more research on that.
Switching topics, I have found the show Pretty Little Liars on Netflix. Good Lord is it addicting! Perfect for escaping into a guilty pleasure. I'm also re-watching Charmed and experiencing True Blood on DVD. Netflix does wonders for the summer TV season. Alright everyone I need to get my butt to bed because tomorrow brings Cedar Point and an 18 hour day. Have wonderful nights and Happy Fourths! Cheers!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Negative Nellie, party of 1 (draft posted with a note)
Hey guys I know I just posted something but I just found this post from awhile ago. I never published it and I really think it needs to be said. I still feel this way a lot. Anyways...here it is:
Everyone has those times that they remember in their lives. Some of those times are good, others are bad for different reasons. I haven't been doing well with being positive or improving my view of myself lately. I don't think I was always so negative but I know about the point that I lost that positivity. I was never really popular as a kid, I was literally picked last in gym class. I had parties where no one showed up, I was picked on horribly from about 2nd grade and all through high school. I've always been a third string kind of person, it wasn't until high school that I felt truly wanted in a group of friends and even some of those people hurt me badly. I'm not saying this to get pity. Please don't pity me, I have learned a lot from it and the friends I have now are some of the best people in the world. I'm telling you this because it has affected me.
If there is a lot of positive things going on in my life, I'm just waiting for the bad things to come back. If I suggest something, I know most people will think it shouldn't be done.
My pride keeps saying "this is smart because you are always prepared" but this sucks! Living like this makes you doubt yourself and everyone around you, it makes you scared to try anything because you might fail (again), and it makes people not want to be around you because you are so negative.
Recently I've been wondering what my life would have been like if I went to a different school, or if my parents would have noticed that I didn't really have friends. Of course, it is a much grander picture of my current life and fulfills all of the "I wish I..." criteria of my thoughts. I think everyone has felt like that at one time or another. If they say they haven't, I think they are lying.
Trying to become a positive person, is like trying to climb Mt. Everest without any training. I can't just tell myself to be happy, or to not feel like a failure. I usually have to work myself up to try something, and I don't always know how I started feeling happy. Can anyone teach you how to be happy?
I have a million things swirling around in my head right now and they are so all over the place within this topic that I just can't write it all down. Final thoughts: parents work on self worth, kindness, and overcoming fear/others with your children; everyone know that the negative person probably had to deal with a lot of shit growing up so work with them accordingly.
Guess I'll be starting my training to climb Everest soon. Cheers.
Everyone has those times that they remember in their lives. Some of those times are good, others are bad for different reasons. I haven't been doing well with being positive or improving my view of myself lately. I don't think I was always so negative but I know about the point that I lost that positivity. I was never really popular as a kid, I was literally picked last in gym class. I had parties where no one showed up, I was picked on horribly from about 2nd grade and all through high school. I've always been a third string kind of person, it wasn't until high school that I felt truly wanted in a group of friends and even some of those people hurt me badly. I'm not saying this to get pity. Please don't pity me, I have learned a lot from it and the friends I have now are some of the best people in the world. I'm telling you this because it has affected me.
If there is a lot of positive things going on in my life, I'm just waiting for the bad things to come back. If I suggest something, I know most people will think it shouldn't be done.
My pride keeps saying "this is smart because you are always prepared" but this sucks! Living like this makes you doubt yourself and everyone around you, it makes you scared to try anything because you might fail (again), and it makes people not want to be around you because you are so negative.
Recently I've been wondering what my life would have been like if I went to a different school, or if my parents would have noticed that I didn't really have friends. Of course, it is a much grander picture of my current life and fulfills all of the "I wish I..." criteria of my thoughts. I think everyone has felt like that at one time or another. If they say they haven't, I think they are lying.
Trying to become a positive person, is like trying to climb Mt. Everest without any training. I can't just tell myself to be happy, or to not feel like a failure. I usually have to work myself up to try something, and I don't always know how I started feeling happy. Can anyone teach you how to be happy?
I have a million things swirling around in my head right now and they are so all over the place within this topic that I just can't write it all down. Final thoughts: parents work on self worth, kindness, and overcoming fear/others with your children; everyone know that the negative person probably had to deal with a lot of shit growing up so work with them accordingly.
Guess I'll be starting my training to climb Everest soon. Cheers.
Oh there you are!
Hi! Long time no see. To be specific it was about 7 months ago that I last posted. I have thought about coming back many times but the lazy bug bit me in the ass hard. I also sometimes liken myself to a bear...I hibernate because I hate winter so dang much!
So anyways, I'm back. I have started a new job and truth be told, I hate it. I know this is common for many people, but what sucks even more is that I'm good at it but STILL hate it. My boss has even told me that. I work in a daycare and the kids are alright but I really don't like having 3 year olds for 10 hours a day that aren't mine. I get just enough hours but I'm still doing work outside of work and when I come home, I have just enough energy to make dinner but no cleaning or self improvement. As a result, I have back slid on ALL of my goals. The plus side is I do work with some pretty awesome people and I don't think I tell them that enough.
As it is now summer, and I'm getting sick of myself again, it's time to revamp and rededicate myself to me. I have to break down my goals into smaller bits because big bites do the opposite of motivate. I also have to learn to figure myself out and improve myself around my work schedule/energy/stress levels. I also have to be patient. I think this is really hard for me because I'm tired of feeling so crappy all of the time. If you could look at my soul, it would probably look like one of my less-than-stellar-motor-control student's drawings (a.k.a. a scribbly hot mess with lots of black and brown). I would prefer a soul closer to an impressionist painting, because they use pretty colors and it's not totally neat and tidy but it's still beautiful. Oh I just thought of something fun. If you draw a black dot on like a coffee filter or something and allow it to suck up water somehow, your black dot will start to spread. Not make the whole thing black, but turn into purple, blue, red and yellow. So maybe I just need more soul water.
So I don't know what I'm going to do about my understanding of God. I got to a better place with this goal before, but I haven't thought about how to revamp/rededicate this one.
As for my fitness, I'm starting very small. Let's get 80 oz of hydrating fluid a day. How did I get 80 oz? A trick my trainer taught me. You should be drinking half your body weight as oz each day. This includes water, milk, juice, no caffeine tea and coffee. I want more water than anything else because it's the best for you, but tea is good for me too. I want to be doing this for a month. Next can add in either the diet or the exercise...starting small remember?
My relationship with my husband has been doing very well. We are getting more on the same page with lots of things and have been more understanding of each other. I want to keep this going.
As for what I want to do with my life...I still want to be a stay at home mom. Career wise though, no clue. I think right now I'm just going to go with stay on top of lesson planning and having materials ready. Mom is helping with the sending in of applications but I don't get calls for interviews and the 1 interview I have gotten I failed miserably at. My hope is at the bottom of a deep well and I can't dwell on it. So, I need to make the work I do now, the best so that I can feel successful again at something career related.
Since I have lived by the philosophy of "messy bed, messy head" for a few years now (yes I know my house is actually a mess, and I get super lazy, but the saying rings true!) I am getting my ass in gear and making my house what I want it to be. I figure since we are only renting, we have been living here for 2 years, nothing is organized, everything is cluttered, the walls are bare, and my body feels frantic just sitting here, I'm DEEP CLEANING! Mom is coming over for 2 4 day weekends to help (which I love her for very much). We are organizing, sorting, throwing away, donating, scrubbing, and fixing most of the rooms the first weekend. The second weekend (a couple weeks later to allow motivation to blossom again) we are getting the basement done and decorating. All I can really say about this right now is "God, I hope this works!"
Anyways, that is where I am. That spot in the distance is where I'm hoping to be, and I am going to try to keep you all informed. It feels good to be back (which is surprising because I've never been a writer before) and I hope you all have great evenings.
Cheers!
So anyways, I'm back. I have started a new job and truth be told, I hate it. I know this is common for many people, but what sucks even more is that I'm good at it but STILL hate it. My boss has even told me that. I work in a daycare and the kids are alright but I really don't like having 3 year olds for 10 hours a day that aren't mine. I get just enough hours but I'm still doing work outside of work and when I come home, I have just enough energy to make dinner but no cleaning or self improvement. As a result, I have back slid on ALL of my goals. The plus side is I do work with some pretty awesome people and I don't think I tell them that enough.
As it is now summer, and I'm getting sick of myself again, it's time to revamp and rededicate myself to me. I have to break down my goals into smaller bits because big bites do the opposite of motivate. I also have to learn to figure myself out and improve myself around my work schedule/energy/stress levels. I also have to be patient. I think this is really hard for me because I'm tired of feeling so crappy all of the time. If you could look at my soul, it would probably look like one of my less-than-stellar-motor-control student's drawings (a.k.a. a scribbly hot mess with lots of black and brown). I would prefer a soul closer to an impressionist painting, because they use pretty colors and it's not totally neat and tidy but it's still beautiful. Oh I just thought of something fun. If you draw a black dot on like a coffee filter or something and allow it to suck up water somehow, your black dot will start to spread. Not make the whole thing black, but turn into purple, blue, red and yellow. So maybe I just need more soul water.
So I don't know what I'm going to do about my understanding of God. I got to a better place with this goal before, but I haven't thought about how to revamp/rededicate this one.
As for my fitness, I'm starting very small. Let's get 80 oz of hydrating fluid a day. How did I get 80 oz? A trick my trainer taught me. You should be drinking half your body weight as oz each day. This includes water, milk, juice, no caffeine tea and coffee. I want more water than anything else because it's the best for you, but tea is good for me too. I want to be doing this for a month. Next can add in either the diet or the exercise...starting small remember?
My relationship with my husband has been doing very well. We are getting more on the same page with lots of things and have been more understanding of each other. I want to keep this going.
As for what I want to do with my life...I still want to be a stay at home mom. Career wise though, no clue. I think right now I'm just going to go with stay on top of lesson planning and having materials ready. Mom is helping with the sending in of applications but I don't get calls for interviews and the 1 interview I have gotten I failed miserably at. My hope is at the bottom of a deep well and I can't dwell on it. So, I need to make the work I do now, the best so that I can feel successful again at something career related.
Since I have lived by the philosophy of "messy bed, messy head" for a few years now (yes I know my house is actually a mess, and I get super lazy, but the saying rings true!) I am getting my ass in gear and making my house what I want it to be. I figure since we are only renting, we have been living here for 2 years, nothing is organized, everything is cluttered, the walls are bare, and my body feels frantic just sitting here, I'm DEEP CLEANING! Mom is coming over for 2 4 day weekends to help (which I love her for very much). We are organizing, sorting, throwing away, donating, scrubbing, and fixing most of the rooms the first weekend. The second weekend (a couple weeks later to allow motivation to blossom again) we are getting the basement done and decorating. All I can really say about this right now is "God, I hope this works!"
Anyways, that is where I am. That spot in the distance is where I'm hoping to be, and I am going to try to keep you all informed. It feels good to be back (which is surprising because I've never been a writer before) and I hope you all have great evenings.
Cheers!
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